Did I Completely Lose My Emotions?





Trauma, heartbreak, pain, jealousy, and disappointment, believe it or not, it all ends up in you flooded in your own pool of tears if you let your emotions control you. The good news is that over the years, I’ve learnt my lessons and stayed far from these troubling life events that often rile my emotions. Don’t get me wrong; I feel, but I tend to avoid feeling until I can’t escape it. People call it ditching or running from your troubles.I’ll be honest with you; this story is a bit of a personal journey, and I’m laying my heart on the line here. Opening up about the moments that left their indelible mark on my soul isn’t a walk in the park. Transforming the pain, the untold lessons that have tugged at my heartstrings, into written words? Well, that’s a challenge I’m willing to embrace, and I’m inviting you along for the ride. Let’s dive in, shall we?You see, I come from a strong Christian family. For my family, the church was more than just a place of worship; it was our way of life. To top it all, I held the esteemed title of firstborn, a position that came with unspoken expectations from my parents.It was a role I willingly embraced, never questioning the weight of those expectations. In fact, for a long time, it all felt like a natural part of who I was. But here’s where the story takes a turn — the pressure of perfection and standards set by my family that never really bothered me up until now. I was always a dutiful child, doing what was expected of me, no questions asked. I never really thought twice about it. I even pictured myself as someone with a love story where everything fell into place, just as it should.